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SORRY

I seriously suck at updating D:
Not just here- my fanfictions as well!! >_<'' I have a HUGE writersblock on the like... last fucking chapter of In the dark you are the one I know... I know WHAT I'm supposed to write, just not how the hell I'm going to write it without it sounding... extreamly horrible D: argh
But I'm trying! :D

So in one week it's Christmas! And I'm sick as hell! D: However, I've started on my X-mas oneshot Itasaku story :D It's turning out pretty much as I wanted it :3 also I'm hoping to have In the dark you are the one I see finished before the new year! 

Though to experiences I've learned not to do ANYTHING on FF.net while  I have a fever xD last time I acidentally removed In the dark you are the one I see -__- I still feel horrible over it D: 60 revews just goodbye~~ TT__TT 

oh well... I hope to reed lots of new Christmas special fanfics :D they're just simply wonderful to read near Christmas x3 

blablablablabla I wanna sleep xD 

It's soon X-mas! I haven't bought even ONE X-mas present yet!!!!! OxO

Is this the end? I don't have any money? I haven't gotten any money since September! How the hell did my parents think I would be able to buy anything when I don't even get any money o_O''

Oh well, it'll be fine someway :3 

I'm thinking of doing some Christmas special chapter in "In the dark you are the one I see" or just do some oneshot Christmas thingy like last year... But then it should be something happy with a happy ending compared to last years oneshot o___o hmm... OH! I KNOW!!! hahahahhaha I know the perfect story XD hahah! Itachi is going to be santa :D and Sakura is going to be an elf XD and they fall in love *_* during the last stress of the year when Itachi soon has to deliver the toys they've been making the whole year to all the boys and girls in the world. xD hahaha sorry, but I have a hard time not laughing when I think about Itachi as santa XD lol

I'll start writing on it today ;3 so it's finished :3 and then maybe I'll do some X-mas special in my Harry Potter Naruto X-over =P We'll see xD 

Hah, I'm sitting in my classroom, it's 45min left until I start xD nice~

I'm thinking, I don't want the main charaters in stories to always have a tragic past... Maybe that's why I love Sakura so much, she's so perfectly human compared to almost all the other main ninjas in Naruto. Next Fanfiction I'm gonna start writing Sakura's not going to have a tragic past! That's final! muhahahah 

But Itachi and Pein have such tragic pasts... I can't really change that in fanfictions now can I... hmm... But then I always think of this kind of Furuba Tohru-heals-kyou-and-Yuki-with-her-happiness thing... However, Tohru has a pretty tragic past too, though she's happy anyway. She always had her mother until her mother died... But after Kyoko dies Tohru still always at least pretends to be happy, never wanting to hurt anyone. I think she's inhuman with that... Though if I ever met a person like her I wouldn't even want Kyou to take her away from me o_O No, a person like her doesn't exist =P that's just not possible. 

So I'll just stick with Sakura :3 just like Kishimoto-sama says thinks: Sakura's creation is a result of Kishimoto's desire to make a somewhat irritating character who was well-intentioned. Despite these elements, Kishimoto is fond of Sakura, as he feels that many of her personality traits are common among all people, thus giving her a sense of real humanity.

Gotta love Kishimoto-sama

This weekend was supposed to be like... wonderful! It was meant to be! Because pC-crew were having a sleepover at Jonas house from Friday to Saturday... But then my mom suddenly decided to drag me to Norrköping (town 3 hours away from Uppsala where I live) to visit my grandpa! Making me unable to go the the sleepover! It probably sounds really childish and all, I mean, who would chose their friends over their old-soon-to-die grandpa... ME! of course I would! Sorry grandpa but I'm a horrible person (duh?). It was my fault pC started, I haven't missed one pC gathering or sleepover or special edition thingy! gah 

So I though I would write a lot! But of course mom wants us to be with grandpa a couple of hours and then go eat dinner with my cousins and all... Making me totally unable to write at all... 

Though I have at last fixed the main storyline of my non-fanfic story! I had a lot of problems with not the characters but the main story! The characters are the first thing I came up with strangely enough. 

The main character is Al (short for Alli) who's 15-16 years old (depending on some things I have to check) and during summer vacation moves to her blind old grandmother who lives alone with a lot of cats in a smaller town in England. She's a daydreamer, always thinking about life and meaning of things we do not understand. 

So the story is a mixture of a love story and a adventure... She gets tired of natures laws and decides to create magic in this world we live in. The meaning of "magic" is of course not the Harry Potter-swing-of-a-wand-hidden-society-with-wizards meaning. It is abnormal, simply things that don't happen. This girl who falls for a two year older school-acquaintance named Christine decides it's time to change the world, developing something that never should have been made.

So I need someone who can help me with ideas, of course what I just wrote is only a tiny tiny part of what I've come up with this far. But I still need help! 

skipped school yesterday in order to be with Gustav the whole day. It's almost a little strange how I can the way from the nearest buss top to her grandmothers house o_O oh well

I want to be rid of this constant feeling of loneliness, I hate it. Always always feeling as if I have no one, no one near me, even though I have. Paranoid, freaking paranoid. 

Wow, three days and I've been to 1 lesson in total... feels wonderful in some strange way.

I'm gonna continue writing now soon. I don't really know what I'm doing anymore... I should be writing, I'm telling myself to write! But I just read books all the time instead.. feels stupid dah

Me and the rest of pC-crew (a crew of wonderfully stange people like myself) are going to Jonas on friday :D yeyness, it's gonna be loads of fun xD I'm gonna film a lot :D then clip clip music clip and tadaa it'll be up on youtube muahahah then everyone'll be able to have a bit of our crazyness! Wonderful, nee ~

Hopefully I'm going to get a new bookshelf soon! Many books are living by my window now in order to have room with books in my bookshelf... hehe  Then I can have one bookshelf for comics and another for real books! AWSOME! ... I think it is at least 

I tiered of school, I donno why... It's loads of fun and all... but  it's just something wrong with it all... Just I have no idea what... it's gonna drive me insane soon! gah! At least it's Christmas break soon so if I'm lucky I'll get back some of my school spirit by then! yeyness