So in one week it's Christmas! And I'm sick as hell! D: However, I've started on my X-mas oneshot Itasaku story :D It's turning out pretty much as I wanted it :3 also I'm hoping to have In the dark you are the one I see finished before the new year! 

Though to experiences I've learned not to do ANYTHING on FF.net while  I have a fever xD last time I acidentally removed In the dark you are the one I see -__- I still feel horrible over it D: 60 revews just goodbye~~ TT__TT 

oh well... I hope to reed lots of new Christmas special fanfics :D they're just simply wonderful to read near Christmas x3 

blablablablabla I wanna sleep xD 

It's soon X-mas! I haven't bought even ONE X-mas present yet!!!!! OxO

Is this the end? I don't have any money? I haven't gotten any money since September! How the hell did my parents think I would be able to buy anything when I don't even get any money o_O''

Oh well, it'll be fine someway :3 

I'm thinking of doing some Christmas special chapter in "In the dark you are the one I see" or just do some oneshot Christmas thingy like last year... But then it should be something happy with a happy ending compared to last years oneshot o___o hmm... OH! I KNOW!!! hahahahhaha I know the perfect story XD hahah! Itachi is going to be santa :D and Sakura is going to be an elf XD and they fall in love *_* during the last stress of the year when Itachi soon has to deliver the toys they've been making the whole year to all the boys and girls in the world. xD hahaha sorry, but I have a hard time not laughing when I think about Itachi as santa XD lol

I'll start writing on it today ;3 so it's finished :3 and then maybe I'll do some X-mas special in my Harry Potter Naruto X-over =P We'll see xD 

Hah, I'm sitting in my classroom, it's 45min left until I start xD nice~

I'm thinking, I don't want the main charaters in stories to always have a tragic past... Maybe that's why I love Sakura so much, she's so perfectly human compared to almost all the other main ninjas in Naruto. Next Fanfiction I'm gonna start writing Sakura's not going to have a tragic past! That's final! muhahahah 

But Itachi and Pein have such tragic pasts... I can't really change that in fanfictions now can I... hmm... But then I always think of this kind of Furuba Tohru-heals-kyou-and-Yuki-with-her-happiness thing... However, Tohru has a pretty tragic past too, though she's happy anyway. She always had her mother until her mother died... But after Kyoko dies Tohru still always at least pretends to be happy, never wanting to hurt anyone. I think she's inhuman with that... Though if I ever met a person like her I wouldn't even want Kyou to take her away from me o_O No, a person like her doesn't exist =P that's just not possible. 

So I'll just stick with Sakura :3 just like Kishimoto-sama says thinks: Sakura's creation is a result of Kishimoto's desire to make a somewhat irritating character who was well-intentioned. Despite these elements, Kishimoto is fond of Sakura, as he feels that many of her personality traits are common among all people, thus giving her a sense of real humanity.

Gotta love Kishimoto-sama

This weekend was supposed to be like... wonderful! It was meant to be! Because pC-crew were having a sleepover at Jonas house from Friday to Saturday... But then my mom suddenly decided to drag me to Norrköping (town 3 hours away from Uppsala where I live) to visit my grandpa! Making me unable to go the the sleepover! It probably sounds really childish and all, I mean, who would chose their friends over their old-soon-to-die grandpa... ME! of course I would! Sorry grandpa but I'm a horrible person (duh?). It was my fault pC started, I haven't missed one pC gathering or sleepover or special edition thingy! gah 

So I though I would write a lot! But of course mom wants us to be with grandpa a couple of hours and then go eat dinner with my cousins and all... Making me totally unable to write at all... 

Though I have at last fixed the main storyline of my non-fanfic story! I had a lot of problems with not the characters but the main story! The characters are the first thing I came up with strangely enough. 

The main character is Al (short for Alli) who's 15-16 years old (depending on some things I have to check) and during summer vacation moves to her blind old grandmother who lives alone with a lot of cats in a smaller town in England. She's a daydreamer, always thinking about life and meaning of things we do not understand. 

So the story is a mixture of a love story and a adventure... She gets tired of natures laws and decides to create magic in this world we live in. The meaning of "magic" is of course not the Harry Potter-swing-of-a-wand-hidden-society-with-wizards meaning. It is abnormal, simply things that don't happen. This girl who falls for a two year older school-acquaintance named Christine decides it's time to change the world, developing something that never should have been made.

So I need someone who can help me with ideas, of course what I just wrote is only a tiny tiny part of what I've come up with this far. But I still need help! 

skipped school yesterday in order to be with Gustav the whole day. It's almost a little strange how I can the way from the nearest buss top to her grandmothers house o_O oh well

I want to be rid of this constant feeling of loneliness, I hate it. Always always feeling as if I have no one, no one near me, even though I have. Paranoid, freaking paranoid. 

Wow, three days and I've been to 1 lesson in total... feels wonderful in some strange way.

I'm gonna continue writing now soon. I don't really know what I'm doing anymore... I should be writing, I'm telling myself to write! But I just read books all the time instead.. feels stupid dah

Me and the rest of pC-crew (a crew of wonderfully stange people like myself) are going to Jonas on friday :D yeyness, it's gonna be loads of fun xD I'm gonna film a lot :D then clip clip music clip and tadaa it'll be up on youtube muahahah then everyone'll be able to have a bit of our crazyness! Wonderful, nee ~

Hopefully I'm going to get a new bookshelf soon! Many books are living by my window now in order to have room with books in my bookshelf... hehe  Then I can have one bookshelf for comics and another for real books! AWSOME! ... I think it is at least 

I tiered of school, I donno why... It's loads of fun and all... but  it's just something wrong with it all... Just I have no idea what... it's gonna drive me insane soon! gah! At least it's Christmas break soon so if I'm lucky I'll get back some of my school spirit by then! yeyness

...vilken humor

Here's a picture of my wonderful Suzzii in a Gothic-Lolita something dress <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">xD duh, darling I love you xD not that you didn't know that already =P just proving to society that I love making a fool out of myself :D

So... It's like 02:52 in the morning and I've been watching movies :D The Addams family (xD), A walk to remember (Q__Q) and I'm now gonna watch bang bang you're dead (*__*) Love 'em all <3
Noticed today that there are actually people who read this shit xD wonderful :D that makes me lots of happy xD

Don't really know what to write but who the hell cares =P I'm listening to funny music! x3 Perfect for not sleeping :3 mjao I wanna go drink some coffee but then I'm gonna wake like... everyone -__-
Oh yeah! My grandmother is here D: so I'm kind of... stuck in the house =P because mom thinks I should have some quality time with her or something (they both make me sick) gosh... I mean... She's nice but... she doesn't like the fact that I'm a vegetarian and constantly tries to feed me meat... she doesn't hear anything and forgets everything I say the next second... She (just like my mom and dad it seems) don't get the I-just-want-some-money-don't-buy-something-yourself thing that it pretty much what I've been talking about the last years... If they buy something themselves they just buy things that make one sick =P why thank you for the concern but it's just the fact that I live in a sofa... I don't need bedclothes, duh
oh well... I'm just cranky 'cause I haven't met Suzzii for ages. Tuesday I think... And that was like... 30min... in our Japanese class so it's not like we got to talk much. I mean... What should I do if I don't get to meet her? I don't wanna go anywhere if that means Suzzii isn't there. I'll probably won't be able to see her tomorrow either... 'cause I have to finish the gingerbread houses. I'll put up a pic or two of them later when they're finished ~

A/N: In the dark you are the one I see

hahaha, in the latest chapter of In the dark you are the one I see, there was a lot of dialogs. Mostly everyone was just arguing with each other though. However, I have to admit that I absolutely love to write two or more people having a brawl! I feel so freaking schizo when I'm writing it xD Love the wierdness 8D Donno why I'm dragging the story out so much though, maybe it's because I lost the summary Q_Q hope I find it soon >: then the story'll be finished soon and then I'll just have to finish off Bloodstains of memories before I can start putting up any of my other fanfictions that I'm working on! yeyness
The story ended in a pretty little cliffhanger though :) feels like ages ago that I had one xD probably wasn't, or I just don't update often enough =P who knows?
So... it's just about two chapters left :D hope that all that follow this one will hang on until the end. I love you all <3 >: I read through the chapter a couple of hundred times before I put the chapter up but it seems there's always a bunch of faults everywhere >_<

snow all around

OMFG... it's snowing as hell here .__. Thanks to that I only had one lesson today ;3 most the teachers couldn't get to school because of the sudden snowstorm :D 

So I'm planning to write a lot today, or... tonight :D I just have to finish some math, force myself to not start playing StepMania (-___-)' and then I'll put up the next chapter of my Harry Potter Naruto X-over thihi

The Pic is in uppsala on my way to the movies together with my friends on Friday, it was quite pretty when it was snowing a little... now it's just snowing too much .__.''

I saw Twilight!! The baseball scene was awesome!!!! <3>

After me and Gustav (<3) class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">pokémon and have a very random sleepover o_O xD it was loads of fun~ sad that I don't have any pictures of it though D: lots of very random, disturbing and lol memories are left though xD

Since I became a Vegetarian I haven't eaten meat at all :D I didn't think I would make it XD meat is like... I can't live without meat @__@ but now I noticed... Greens aren't that bad :O yeyness

On my way home today from going shopping food with my mom there was a huge snowstorm going on :D it was really pretty, however, my mom was so into driving and complaining about a truck behind us (see pic above) that was driving far to fast that I was so bored that I had to take random pictures of things around me - including the truck that I could see trough the rear-view window :D it's stalking us Q__Q

ok... I should continue writing now shouldn't I... as in not writing here >: have Swedish homework for tomorrow too but I can't do everything in at once D: Fanfictions and math comes first in my priorities >: (except you Gustav <3) 

I'm the luckiest loser

so...

though this blog is mostly about my fanfictions and stories, that doesn't mean I can't write things about me while I have nothing else to do right? xD

yesterday I became a vegetarian :D because... I don't really know why o_O it's not as if I really honestly care about those little "cute" animals we're eating... Oh well, I get to do my own dinner every day :D yeeyness onigiri <3

I haven't been writing for some time now though =/ I have a lot of homework to do D: and on top of that I have to study for the Japanese test this Friday -__- I'm gonna diiiiiee >':

oh btw!!!!!!!! It's snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3>: that's the bad point in it -__- 

though it's wonderful that it becomes dark so early, around 4-5 in the evening it's pitch black :O it's wonderful :D have to love winter for that. 

oh yeah, if I'm lucky I'll get a Xbox 360 and fable 2 for X-mas ;3 and then I can use the money from selling my drums for UppCon (the largest anime/manga/game-convention i Sweden!) 09 x3 awesome, that way I'm sure to get all the naruto figures in plushy @_@ now I only have Sasuke (D:), ANBU Kakashi (:D) and Oro-chan (xD). I bought Oro-chan out of pity actually XD because on the table at UC08 almost all the plushys were sold out... except Oro-chan xD so I bought one of him :3 it wasn't before after that that I fell for it xD it's the best one to sleep on :3 ANBU Kakashi has his mask that just isn't that comfortable to sleep on .__. and Sasuke... well... he's holding a fuma shiruken (demon wind shiruken) that... is actually quite funny to trow though not as comfortable to sleep on xD and his hair is too pointy >:

hahah my naruto books: 13 in swedish, 1 in japanese and the official fanbook in english xD I'm gonna start buying the books in english as soon as I have the money :3 while I continue buying the swedish ones xD even though the tranlation totally sucks horse shit, THEN dum dum dum I'll buy all the fucking books in japanese :D that's so wonderful <3

I'm gonna watch movie with my brother (of doooooom-ness) soon :3 He's cool, just that he's a nerd :3 but he likes Naruto! :D that's wonderful, I wouldn't survive with a brother who hated naruto xD Though one of my closest friends, Therese, totally hates Sakura D': we often start arguing about her =/ then I get sad, I donno why xD she's a fucking made up comic girl, but even though that, people who say that Sakura is a horrible, ugly bitch while they haven't even seen part 2 (aka: shippuuden) are too irritating >_<

I'm gonna see Twilight with Gustav on friday <3

Blogger

Wow, from now on I'm a blogger... Never thought that would happen :D

Well, it's better like this! Now people can understand why things are as they are. Why I haven't updated "Bloodstains of memories" for like... ages! ect.

While we're on the subject, the reason to why I haven't updated BoM for a very long time is because I want to finish "In the dark you are the one I see" first! It's soon finished, I have the latest chapter finished but I have yet to put it up D: (sorry) So it's just a couple of more chapters of that story and it's finished!! that's when I'll once again continute with BoM '(^_^)>

I'm sure blogging is going to be lots of fun :D it's not as if I have anything alse to do in my free time after writing and homework (yey) 

with Love

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