skipped school yesterday in order to be with Gustav the whole day. It's almost a little strange how I can the way from the nearest buss top to her grandmothers house o_O oh well

I want to be rid of this constant feeling of loneliness, I hate it. Always always feeling as if I have no one, no one near me, even though I have. Paranoid, freaking paranoid. 

Wow, three days and I've been to 1 lesson in total... feels wonderful in some strange way.

I'm gonna continue writing now soon. I don't really know what I'm doing anymore... I should be writing, I'm telling myself to write! But I just read books all the time instead.. feels stupid dah

Me and the rest of pC-crew (a crew of wonderfully stange people like myself) are going to Jonas on friday :D yeyness, it's gonna be loads of fun xD I'm gonna film a lot :D then clip clip music clip and tadaa it'll be up on youtube muahahah then everyone'll be able to have a bit of our crazyness! Wonderful, nee ~

Hopefully I'm going to get a new bookshelf soon! Many books are living by my window now in order to have room with books in my bookshelf... hehe  Then I can have one bookshelf for comics and another for real books! AWSOME! ... I think it is at least 

I tiered of school, I donno why... It's loads of fun and all... but  it's just something wrong with it all... Just I have no idea what... it's gonna drive me insane soon! gah! At least it's Christmas break soon so if I'm lucky I'll get back some of my school spirit by then! yeyness

...vilken humor

Here's a picture of my wonderful Suzzii in a Gothic-Lolita something dress <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">xD duh, darling I love you xD not that you didn't know that already =P just proving to society that I love making a fool out of myself :D

So... It's like 02:52 in the morning and I've been watching movies :D The Addams family (xD), A walk to remember (Q__Q) and I'm now gonna watch bang bang you're dead (*__*) Love 'em all <3
Noticed today that there are actually people who read this shit xD wonderful :D that makes me lots of happy xD

Don't really know what to write but who the hell cares =P I'm listening to funny music! x3 Perfect for not sleeping :3 mjao I wanna go drink some coffee but then I'm gonna wake like... everyone -__-
Oh yeah! My grandmother is here D: so I'm kind of... stuck in the house =P because mom thinks I should have some quality time with her or something (they both make me sick) gosh... I mean... She's nice but... she doesn't like the fact that I'm a vegetarian and constantly tries to feed me meat... she doesn't hear anything and forgets everything I say the next second... She (just like my mom and dad it seems) don't get the I-just-want-some-money-don't-buy-something-yourself thing that it pretty much what I've been talking about the last years... If they buy something themselves they just buy things that make one sick =P why thank you for the concern but it's just the fact that I live in a sofa... I don't need bedclothes, duh
oh well... I'm just cranky 'cause I haven't met Suzzii for ages. Tuesday I think... And that was like... 30min... in our Japanese class so it's not like we got to talk much. I mean... What should I do if I don't get to meet her? I don't wanna go anywhere if that means Suzzii isn't there. I'll probably won't be able to see her tomorrow either... 'cause I have to finish the gingerbread houses. I'll put up a pic or two of them later when they're finished ~

A/N: In the dark you are the one I see

hahaha, in the latest chapter of In the dark you are the one I see, there was a lot of dialogs. Mostly everyone was just arguing with each other though. However, I have to admit that I absolutely love to write two or more people having a brawl! I feel so freaking schizo when I'm writing it xD Love the wierdness 8D Donno why I'm dragging the story out so much though, maybe it's because I lost the summary Q_Q hope I find it soon >: then the story'll be finished soon and then I'll just have to finish off Bloodstains of memories before I can start putting up any of my other fanfictions that I'm working on! yeyness
The story ended in a pretty little cliffhanger though :) feels like ages ago that I had one xD probably wasn't, or I just don't update often enough =P who knows?
So... it's just about two chapters left :D hope that all that follow this one will hang on until the end. I love you all <3 >: I read through the chapter a couple of hundred times before I put the chapter up but it seems there's always a bunch of faults everywhere >_<

snow all around

OMFG... it's snowing as hell here .__. Thanks to that I only had one lesson today ;3 most the teachers couldn't get to school because of the sudden snowstorm :D 

So I'm planning to write a lot today, or... tonight :D I just have to finish some math, force myself to not start playing StepMania (-___-)' and then I'll put up the next chapter of my Harry Potter Naruto X-over thihi

The Pic is in uppsala on my way to the movies together with my friends on Friday, it was quite pretty when it was snowing a little... now it's just snowing too much .__.''

I saw Twilight!! The baseball scene was awesome!!!! <3>

After me and Gustav (<3) class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">pokémon and have a very random sleepover o_O xD it was loads of fun~ sad that I don't have any pictures of it though D: lots of very random, disturbing and lol memories are left though xD

Since I became a Vegetarian I haven't eaten meat at all :D I didn't think I would make it XD meat is like... I can't live without meat @__@ but now I noticed... Greens aren't that bad :O yeyness

On my way home today from going shopping food with my mom there was a huge snowstorm going on :D it was really pretty, however, my mom was so into driving and complaining about a truck behind us (see pic above) that was driving far to fast that I was so bored that I had to take random pictures of things around me - including the truck that I could see trough the rear-view window :D it's stalking us Q__Q

ok... I should continue writing now shouldn't I... as in not writing here >: have Swedish homework for tomorrow too but I can't do everything in at once D: Fanfictions and math comes first in my priorities >: (except you Gustav <3) 

I'm the luckiest loser

so...

though this blog is mostly about my fanfictions and stories, that doesn't mean I can't write things about me while I have nothing else to do right? xD

yesterday I became a vegetarian :D because... I don't really know why o_O it's not as if I really honestly care about those little "cute" animals we're eating... Oh well, I get to do my own dinner every day :D yeeyness onigiri <3

I haven't been writing for some time now though =/ I have a lot of homework to do D: and on top of that I have to study for the Japanese test this Friday -__- I'm gonna diiiiiee >':

oh btw!!!!!!!! It's snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3>: that's the bad point in it -__- 

though it's wonderful that it becomes dark so early, around 4-5 in the evening it's pitch black :O it's wonderful :D have to love winter for that. 

oh yeah, if I'm lucky I'll get a Xbox 360 and fable 2 for X-mas ;3 and then I can use the money from selling my drums for UppCon (the largest anime/manga/game-convention i Sweden!) 09 x3 awesome, that way I'm sure to get all the naruto figures in plushy @_@ now I only have Sasuke (D:), ANBU Kakashi (:D) and Oro-chan (xD). I bought Oro-chan out of pity actually XD because on the table at UC08 almost all the plushys were sold out... except Oro-chan xD so I bought one of him :3 it wasn't before after that that I fell for it xD it's the best one to sleep on :3 ANBU Kakashi has his mask that just isn't that comfortable to sleep on .__. and Sasuke... well... he's holding a fuma shiruken (demon wind shiruken) that... is actually quite funny to trow though not as comfortable to sleep on xD and his hair is too pointy >:

hahah my naruto books: 13 in swedish, 1 in japanese and the official fanbook in english xD I'm gonna start buying the books in english as soon as I have the money :3 while I continue buying the swedish ones xD even though the tranlation totally sucks horse shit, THEN dum dum dum I'll buy all the fucking books in japanese :D that's so wonderful <3

I'm gonna watch movie with my brother (of doooooom-ness) soon :3 He's cool, just that he's a nerd :3 but he likes Naruto! :D that's wonderful, I wouldn't survive with a brother who hated naruto xD Though one of my closest friends, Therese, totally hates Sakura D': we often start arguing about her =/ then I get sad, I donno why xD she's a fucking made up comic girl, but even though that, people who say that Sakura is a horrible, ugly bitch while they haven't even seen part 2 (aka: shippuuden) are too irritating >_<

I'm gonna see Twilight with Gustav on friday <3

Blogger

Wow, from now on I'm a blogger... Never thought that would happen :D

Well, it's better like this! Now people can understand why things are as they are. Why I haven't updated "Bloodstains of memories" for like... ages! ect.

While we're on the subject, the reason to why I haven't updated BoM for a very long time is because I want to finish "In the dark you are the one I see" first! It's soon finished, I have the latest chapter finished but I have yet to put it up D: (sorry) So it's just a couple of more chapters of that story and it's finished!! that's when I'll once again continute with BoM '(^_^)>

I'm sure blogging is going to be lots of fun :D it's not as if I have anything alse to do in my free time after writing and homework (yey) 

with Love

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